Friday, April 29, 2011

VLCD Day 5 195.5 total loss STILL 7lbs!! No loss :(

     Woke up this morning and knew there would be either a gain, or no loss.  I cheated yes I did, I cheated. But it was sooooooo good!  Here's the thing, I know that I am a stress eater, and yesterday I was super stressed and angry.  Still kinda angry today.  Here's the other thing, I am mad at the world right now too, it's not just one person or thing that has set me off, its the lack of foods that I want.  One of the side effects of hcg is irritability, and man, I didn't even realize how miserable and angry I was till I was told I need to reevaluate some things, and every one asking me what the heck is my problem!  This diet, although working, is making me crazy! I am treating people badly and going off on old people.  Somethings gotta give, maybe I need to work some things out with the diet or something, but man, I do not like being angry all the time.  I have been drinking a lot of tea today and had an apple.  I am trying to do an apple day, but if I flip out one more time on someone I'm going to eat a whole lotta crap.  I already know it.  The good thing is that I am not a complete quitter.  I will complete this cycle no matter what.  I know we all have slip ups, I just didn't think it would be me so soon!
--Sooooooo, I did it again.  We had Longhorn for dinner and I killed it!!!  I had a crab stuffed fillet, mashed potatoes, Caesar salad, shrimp and lobster dip, and warm bread.  I messed up BIG TIME, but what did I say?? Tomorrow is another day to try, try, try again.

2 comments:

  1. It's ok get back on the wagon. It is a mind over matter thing. When you cook for the kids always have your meal prepared and ready to nibble on. When your cravings are out of control get your favorite tea and sip it hot! I don't know those are some of the things I've done to get me through some tough times. What's going on with anger???? lol I understand you are frustrated but think of it flipped the other way. Be angry with yourself for allowing the bad decisions to get you here. But be happy that you are doing something about it everyday. I'm no expert but maybe even a little meditation in the morning on your goals could help even out your mood! It will be ok though. Keep pushing forward you can't change what you've done only what you're going to do!

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